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2022's log entries

01 ~ 6/27/2022 1:11pm

i stayed up and made tres leches last night i havent tried it yet though i hope its good. i feel like if i spend all day working i can get a lot of shit done and hopefully come up with more ideas. i should really think about college as well i dont know where im gonna go and how im supposed to be able to survive. ill go where ever life takes me i suppose.

02 ~ 9/19/2022 7:25pm

i lost most of my log entries so starting fresh i guess lol

03 ~ 9/20/2022 8:23am

about yesterday - it wasnt very good but it was good at the very end of it. i didnt feel like putting up with anything and i was not really doing well mentally. but after a while i started feeling better ^.^. i havent said anything about this on here but im exercising more to gain muscle. ive been doing it for about 2-3 weeks now. ive made a ton of progress since then im happy.

04 ~ 9/23/2022

this week was absolutely awful. i had a lot of episodes as well as back to back splitting episodes -__-. sometimes i really wish i could just never speak to people again. im going to the mall tomorrow hopefully thatll make up for this week being shitty.

05 ~ 9/26/2022

things have gotten better but not much. my episodes have settled down a bit. i went to the mall the other day. i bought a shirt, some earrings, and a new lanyard. they had a spirit halloween open at the first floor. i didn't want to spend too much but i wanted to. i got a ghostface mask and a syringe pen its so cute ^.^

06 ~ 11/21/2022

trying to pick up coding again. mental healths still been shitty lately but thats what that is i guess. i made brownies last week and i plan to cook for my family this week... though i don't celebrate thanksgiving. i really want to start cooking again more especially for myself. im getting a bit sick of ordering out since im kind of broke now LOL. i finished the process of finding and applying to colleges and got into a school like last weekend. not my #1 choice but yay me. i'm kind of in the process of job hunting again hopefully i can actually get one that isnt very exploitive this time....... let alone one that doesn't involve me in a kitchen.

media i've been into lately or finished:

splatoon ~ its all i ever fucking play really lol. aside from the actually playing of the game i like looking into band lore.

teizokurei daydream ~ ive started it a few weeks ago(?) its really good i like it so far

yakuza kiwami 2 ~ i hate it but im almost done so i must persist

im thinking of ending things by iain reid ~ i thought it was ok. the ending was really weird and kind of underwhelming

07 ~ 11/22/2022

i might hack my wii u today hopefully i have everything i need to do it. or maybe i wont. depends on how lazy i am.

08 ~ 12/29/2022

today wasn't so bad. i got medicated after years of being basically denied access to medication for mental issues which is really big for me because i've been struggling with how to cope and manage with them for a while. i got prescribed risperidone and i'm going on a mood stabilizer after a month of being on it. it was my birthday the other day too. i turned 18 finally and im getting a new laptop which is coming tomorrow. i've been playing doom and splatoon 3 a lot recently and i've been meaning to finish the games i need to finish (long list that i dont wanna bother making.) but anyways yeah im fine i plan to try to code more which i keep promising yet failing to do so lol.

09 ~ 12/31/2022

happy new year i guess. i broke in my new laptop. its big as fuck but i cant complain since this is a pretty big change for me since i've only ever owned a shitty macbook model thats been recalled cuz of how bad the battery is. i can now play games i've never been able to play too its exciting. today wasn't so bad. i took my new meds and they made me really tired so i slept for most of the day and they made me feel like a zombie. which is fine i guess. itll get better i hope.